My Self

It was earlier in the morning of the Wednesday in a very peaceful village at Tanah Merah, in the state of Kelantan. It was on the 9 August in the year of 1995, a child was born on that day and she was a girl. It was a blessing for the mother to have another daughter in their family after giving birth for five son and a daughter. It was a pleasure to have one more daughter in her and her husband life because they have grew five son and they really hopes that they will have daughters too. The father of the mother gave a name to that baby girl with a classic and evergreen name, and the name is Siti Hamidah. They call the baby as Hamidah because the meaning of that name is praising Allah. It was very nice to hear that. They grew the baby from she was a baby girl until she became a woman. The parents take care of the girl with full of love and give the happiness to that girl.

It was in 2001, the girl was get in to 6 years old and ready to go to the kindergarten. The parents sent her to the Tabika Perpaduan Manal Jaya nearer to their house. She is a very active girl. She loves to eat everything that her mom’s cook. She also an independent girl. She can walk to school alone and she can help her mother to take care of her younger sister when her mother was not around. What can be describe to this 6 years old girl is she is reliable even though she is a small girl.

The girl was growing. She had entered the primary school at Sekolah Kebangsaan Tanah Merah Satu. Like what have been told earlier, she is very independent. Their parents don’t have to send her to school because she already can go to school by the school bus herself. Like another girl coeval with her, she is a girl full with imaginations. She loves to trance to be like someone who’s better than her but she has to belief that she just a simple girl. She love to dress and she always take care of her personality since she was in primary school. She is also quite a clever girl. She always be in the first class from standard one until six. She scored 4 A’s for Ujian Penilaian Sekolah Rendah (UPSR) and that was quite impressing for her parents and friends.

A few years past and the girl become a teenager. She was growing very fast and her attitudes also slowly changing. She learned to have a feeling towards a boy. She learned to be in love with a boy and having an affair with a boy. She learned everything throughout the growing process. She was becoming to a stubborn and lazy girl. She disobey her parents and she always disappointed her parents. Her study performance going down so badly and she was not like the old girl. One day, something bad happened to her, she was caught having a date with her boyfriend by her teacher. The teacher bring her to the principle and called their parents. It was very embarrassing. Her parents scold her because she put a shame to her parents face. Her father hit her as lesson for her. She felt very regret for all that happened. She apologized to her parents and promise to change and never do that again. That bad event have changed her to a better person. She obey her parents and obey to Allah. She focus to her study and thank God she manage to get a good result in Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia (SPM). She managed to get 6 A’s in her SPM. It was a blessing for her parents after all the bad attitudes that she did before.

Now, she is in a one of the university in Malaysia. She is in Universiti Pendidikan Sultan Idris. She took the Diploma In English program. Her mother want her to be an educator and she hopes she can fulfill her mother’s hopes. In the first semester she got less than 3.00 for her result. The bad result make her to determine to study hard to get a better result. In semester two her result getting up to 3.35 and she felt thankful but she still has to work hard. For the third semester, she managed to get the dean list. She very praised but she still need to work hard to get a better result and keep it up until the end of the Diploma program. She determines to further her study and she really want to chase her dream to be an educator to the new generation. She is a girl that full with hopes and she is very ambitious to fulfill her mother dreams. The girl is really actually myself. The girl was me and this is the story of my life.



"I was born with the imperfectness"